I remember being a teenager, and wanting to wake up one day and be beautiful. I soooo wanted to be one of the "pretty people".
At 38, I've finally figured out--- it may never happen. Well, not by the standards of our crazy culture, anyways.
My eyes are droopy, my cheeks are poochie....I have a barely there second chin... the top lip is too thin....nose isn't too bad-- but-- I did have a nose job when I was a teen- so that doesn't really count. Short hair is rarely on the top 10 list for best hair. And I just can't stand growing it out-- or spending that much time on it. Although- I have been knownto cheat, and wear "clip on hair" on ocassion. ;)
We won't even talk about my weight rt now.
Let's just say- in me, the american standard of beauty has not been attained. I'm just your average mom.
But- I didn't feel average this morning. This morning, Noah said "Mommy, you're so beautiful, I can't take my eyes off you" He said this BEFORE my shower, even.
Then, later, this afternoon, Noah said, "Mommy, when are you gonna go to ballet class? You would be a beautiful ballerina"
Yeah- it's true, I'll never meet certain cultural standards of beauty... well not without an "Extreme Makeover".... but, somehow, in the eyes of my husband (who teaches this boy these silly love things to say.. ) and my guys, I have finally made it to beautiful.
One of the amazing things about God, is that he see me before my shower- and at my very worst, and still loves me and thinks I'm beautiful. Poochie cheeks, fat butt bad attitude, bad temper, and all!!!
S0 beautiful, in fact, that they can't take their eyes off me, actually.
So there. I finally bloomed.
Phillipians 1:6 " being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. "
Psalm 139
17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.
Dear Lord- help me to prioritize your standards-- and help me to rest in who and how and what you have created me to be, in your time. I love you Lord- and am so glad that you are still working to change and grow me- please help me to bloom in YOU, amen.
